Wednesday, April 25, 2012

snapshots after makeup and before heading out to my housemate, Maggie's birthday...

 the front view of me smiling...
 looking to the left...
 this is really just random...
and here comes my part : FROWN

and we checked in Dave's Bistro Grill Bar

 sneaking into the background of the picture....and that was TIGER beer by the way
 not so sure of what drink is this....I was pouring my healthy DETOX tea in the background of the picture
 forever awkward look when people snap my picture...
 and they asked me to be relax and natural

we were tempted to try their popular dish on the menu...
but it costs RM80 for a quarter of a roasted piglet...



my friends told me I will have nasty body odour if I consume pork,mutton,beef, etc...

not sure if it is proven true

but I do not wanna smell bad..

lastly, the 'yam' look pic of mine...

 'yam' is perverted in one of the dialect of Chinese language...

yeah, indeed,I couldn't agree more to them I looked 'yam' in this pic...

Shu Ying

Sunday, April 22, 2012

high school.puppy love

puppy love is defined as ' The love between a young couple (in their teens I assumed) within a few weeks of getting together (never really lasted into marriages, but some puppy love lasted for years...) Not really true love, more blind affection - immature, young love. Tyically occurs before one person becomes a bitch' 

that definition wasn't from me

I googled,yeah and it's from Urban dictionary...

seems like the world does not have a good impression towards 'puppy love'..

however, I came to think about it differently...

I feel puppy love is a stage/experience of life where we should not miss out...

have you noticed,people in their teens, involving in love or so-called puppy love, the people around them would tell them that they are wasting their time, why? because this love isn't going to last and eventually you are going to get hurt! 

but, in my opinion, this is a stage where you are the most innocent and naive and true to love, as you don't judge much of the consequences and just follow how your heart feels...

as you grow up into your twenties and later in life, love isn't gonna be as simple as the puppy love in your teens anymore...but you still get to choose someone you truly love and wanna to spend the life with..

though you need to consider a lot...whether this love is going somewhere, I meant, marriages...

even sadly in thirties, where it's the time you should be 'married' and still not found the right one, I noticed people started getting desperate and just merely finding partners for the sake of marriages...

well, I just thought, some people missed the 'experience of being in simple and naive love' just because they never dated back in their teens...

never get a chance of to be really silly in love, willing to do anything and get hurt...

brief me,if I'm wrong about it...


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

abandoned house photoshoot

it was supposed to be on the main road in town,

where every now and then, cars passing by,

I got so freaked out,

couldn't be feeling more awkward...

giving up, they found it almost impossible to persuade me to just stand in the middle of the road and snap pictures..

decided to change the scene..

to abandoned houses...

and I found my last picture of the collection is quite interesting...

after all, it was my first time to pose and let others take my picture...

I hope I will do better in the next one..
which is next month..

time to hit the sack,
shu ying

Monday, April 16, 2012


Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

over the years, I learn more and more about myself
who I really am
and here are the compiled facts
feedback from people around me
and myself
which I myself find them true

1. I am a self-centered person (which means I do place myself first above everyone else)
2. I don't really care what happens around me
3. I care about how others look at me, how they judge me and their impression of me
4. I have low self confidence in some aspects
5. I don't check out guys, but I check out girls a lot, however, it doesn't make me a lesbian
6. I have no sense of direction
7. When I cry, my eyes resemble a little fountain
8. I take jokes too seriously, I take serious matter jokingly
9. I have little self control when it comes to shopping
10. When I am mad, I don't stay and fight, I walk away

there is no right or wrong when it comes to personality,
everyone is just different
in this world, each person will have people who love them
and also people who hates them
life's fair
and if anyone hates me for who I am,
I will tell myself
'I have a normal life'


Sunday, April 15, 2012

sometimes, the feelings just ain't right

ever realized that sometimes, everything seems to go the wrong way?

no matter how hard you've just feel life is pushing you too much?

and that you are asking too much from yourself?

wanting to do all the best in almost all the the aspects?

when you feel you're on the verge of breaking down?

I am,now in this condition, feeling stuck at my assignments, tests a

nd reports...

physically totally exhausted...

but I do not know how to pull myself into one piece once again..

maybe I do,tomorrow, when I woke up from my sleep...

sometimes, things just don't feel okay...

somehow, they will be okay in the end

just remember to convince yourself...

like how I do now...

shu ying

-I'll spread my wings and learn how to fly-

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Papa, can you hear me sing?

this is a movie produced in 1983, although it's a kinda old movie, although I was born so much later compared to the movie, I would like to say, this is the one of the best movies I have ever watched in my life.

It is a movie demonstrating how great a father's love can be, to his beloved daughter....i swear each time I watched,ever since i was 4 or 5 years old until recently, I watch the whole movie again part by part in youtube, i cried from part 1/9 to part 9/9 and it haunted me for 2 days, each time I flashback about the movie, my heart feels kinda sour...

here is the link to this movie, and I found english subtitles for those who don't understand Taiwanese's mandarin...

here is the short summary of the movie...

the main character, the father, is a deaf man who collects and sells old alcohol bottles, making enough living to barely feed himself and his fine morning, he passes by a thrash bin and he found a young baby crying in the thrash, her biological mother has abandoned her but named her 'Ah Mei'..

that man brought her home, not knowing that his wife will be upset about this matter.To her, their life has been considered poor enough to feed both of them and now,he brought back another child, someone else's child, and she knows it is not cheap to feed a child. Ah Mei's crying and the hard life they lead where the father needs to feed 3 persons with the little money he makes, the man's wife decided to leave him....

the man wanted to make her stay,but as the child cries, he turned back, he chose the child instead of his wife...his wife left him..and him,a man who cannot speak a word, decided to dedicate his life to raise her up and to love her whole-heartedly...unconditional love,i should say...

the child finally grow up...and she saved a German Shepherd who is injured..named it 'Lai Fu' obedient and loyal dog, a girl and her father, together this family was built...

years and years passed...the girl finally grew up into a fine lady, she got a job in a lounge bar where she works as a singer in that bar....little did she noticed, a young man, Shi Jun Mai, noticed her, he is a song composer and lyrics writer, he spotted her and thinks she is of rare talent...

they then got closer, he writes and composes songs for her to sing in the lounge bar, little did they realised, it changes her life completely when her rare talent in singing was spotted by the production company (I am not so sure what do people call those companies who sign artists)..

Ah Mei signed contract with the company, to be a singer, with the conditions where she needs to change her name to Sun Jui Chi and she needs to cheat about her family background to make her fans thinks that she comes from a wealthy and well-educated family....

in her celebration party after her successful concert in Taiwan, her father attended it without invitation because he misses her so much since she does not goes home for months now, she was forced by her manager not to admit that the old man in his rags is her father, and her father loves her so much that he showed to the media with his sign language that he is not her father but a fraud...and he left the party

life is even more unbearable when his dog, Lai Fu, died when trying to save him from a reckless motorcycle rider....

on the other hand, she then got famous real fast and moved to a bigger condominium prepared by the company,

and her distant with her boyfriend, Shi Jun Mai, who always be there with her, grows, he feels she has changed into someone he no longer know, no longer the innocent girl he met singing in the bar...he then left her...

she had her tour concert in the same time, her father's health is getting worse...

Shi Jun Mai went to visit her father,and he wrote a soulful song for her,hoping that she would sing it in her Taiwan concert after her Asia tour..the song was about her father and her...

when she came back to Taiwan after her Asia tour,her manager stopped her from meeting her father of her tight schedule and upcoming concert..

that night, her father watches her concert through the television's screen, suddenly...his heart grows ill and he was immediately admitted to hospital...

unable to speak or move, his eyes showed that he is missing Ah Mei badly....his friend who sent him to hospital, rushed to the concert and had Ah Mei rushing to hospital to see him for one last chance...

unfortunately, she couldn't make it...he stopped breathing before he could see her...

the movie ended with Ah Mei singing the song Shi Jun Mai wrote for her, in the concert, dedicated to her father....

* I am too lazy to bother to either write in past tense or present tense anymore *

as long as anyone who reads this understand...


Saturday, April 7, 2012

the many faces of me

tonnes of assignments, lab reports, lecture classes and my part

time work

tight schedule all the time

and when I am looking almost a zombie...

WHAT? formal presentation on this coming Saturday???

what the ______!!! (fill in the blank)


but in this hectic lifestyle, I still like to snap my own portrait pictures...


no particular reasons, I just like to take pictures of myself


to see the changes in my hairstyle?

to see how I actually age over the years?

for fun? I personally like to edit pictures

that is what I can do in when I am tired of typing my reports but I have to continue to sit in front of my laptop?

so,these are few pictures I snapped...the many faces of me...

first picture, the Queen of Pride look:

hell yeah, my totally-excited look?

Oh no,trying-to-be-cute look.... =='''

the night is cool~~

EMOness spreading around me....

today-gonna-be-a good-day look!

grumpy look?

Arrogant look:

A smile a day, keep all troubles away =D

'dream, hope and love' look with my favourite quote of all time,

so, which look is the best for me?

gonna go,

till the next post,

with love,