Thursday, August 26, 2010

random thought - a middle-aged man's words

recently, i overheard a man saying something..
i feel it is quite true
and it gives some sort of motivation to people who actually listen to it

it went like this ...

in this world,there are 3 types of people

type 1 : make things happen

type 2: watch things happen

type 3: dunno what is happening

which type of people defined u? whichever is your type,

try to be the one who makes things happen =D

definitely a good piece of advice to digest and absorb into the mind


Friday, August 20, 2010

goodnite to you,nightmare!

*a very very long post*

during the whole month of july 2010,
i could not recall how many times i had these things chasing after me in my nightmares..
almost every night i think
but this is the most vivid one.

it was as if all of a sudden i landed in a strange,alienated area...
somewhere i have nvr been there yet in my life
somewhere on the street which look as if war has just occured.
with corpses lying in every part of the street..
loud screams everywhere...i dunno what is happening..
heard foot steps n noises behind me..
slowly i turned my head around..
seriously gosh...what on earth are these?!

zombies...estimated bout 40 or more of them..
they were biting and chewing on people..

arent them supposed to be part of the myths?
like the other creatures? werewolves,vampires or mermaids?
they really existed??

tearing some people apart..enjoying their meal...
and they're coming nearer n nearer to me..


i was so scare..they were coming fast!
and without me realising...something grabbed me..urm,my arms!

closed my eyes tightly..
thinking 'shit...this is really dying..pls do it fast.pain free plssss'

waited few secs...
tick tock tick tock tick tock..
nope nope.i didnt hear tick tock tick.
i heard lup-dup,lup-dup,lup-dup (my own heart beats)
and all the background noises seemed to be screened for that few secs..


and waited...

eh?? really pain free??
i dont even know they are biting...
no feeling of me being come? really pain free meh???
opened my eyes..n looked back..

i saw him..

within that first 0.0001 sec,i handsome wei...
it was him who grabbed my arms n locked himself around me..
walao...hard-to-earn chance..
havent been admiring his handsome look enough....
i saw a zombie vigorously placed his teeth on his right shoulder...
without the slightest hesitance,that creature sank his teeth into his rather fair flesh and tore it.



he smiled at me (heart-melting) ...i heard him whispered 'it's okay'
others were surounding us from all directions..
forming a huge circle that was getting smaller and closer to us
that zombie was having...urgh...some sort of muscle spasms...
and it erupted like he has just swallowed a bomb..

i was dumbfounded.
and i looked at his wound on the shoulder
surprisingly,it has stopped bleeding..
and...apa ni?? the flesh regrow itself?
and the wound healed like it havent been bitten before!

'who are u??' i asked.

he didnt answer my question. pulling my hand n start forcing through the zombie crowd.
some zombie stepped backwards after seeing the eruption that happened.
n we were running....with them walking like dead bodies behind..chasing us,still.
hiding behind a corner of an old building..
i was gasping for air..and looking at him..

slowly,my eyes moved from his face ---> his neck ---> his throat ---> his chest



his chest was not moving.he was NOT breathing..what the??
n he told me something...i couldnt hear it..
but i could see it..from a bird's eye if it happened right in front of me

in a very clean laboratory...
i could see 4 persons...
he was sitting on the bed,wearing white..
the others in light green lab coat,with masks n gloves on.
they injected something into him.something in liquid form.
and beside the bed,there was a machine.sort of recording his heart pulses pattern..
suddenly he was he was suffering from some trauma..
the fellas in green look scared.
and machine showing his heart beats keep dropping...

they were panicked.. and they injected another liquid thingy into him.

he seemed to be less struggling and then,returning normal.

but something odd was happening.his pulse is zero.pulse of a dead person.

the 3 green fellas looked at each other n one of them tried to fix the machine.
thinking the machine might spoilt.he cant be dead.he was looking at them n looked normal!

*phanggg!* the glass door was broken.

those zombie-looking fellas came rushing into the room n did what zombies did best.
they killed the 3 green-coated fellas,leaving that guy behind.
looking into his eyes now,i could tell how afraid he used to be in that lab,equal to my fear just now.
and another scene came flashing through my eyes again.
that guy.didnt leave the lab.did not make a move to get down from that bed.stoned.and the dead bodies of the 3 green-coated fellas were on the floor.

an hour or so has passed,the 3 green fellas opened their eyes n began to get up turning into zombies (very similiar to the resident evil that i have watched)
they walked out from the lab,so did the guy..he was following behind them

confused n didnt know why the zombies didnt attack him.
he could not believe his eyes,he saw the streets full of zombies

the town was dead.

n there,he wandered for about 3 days when he finally felt hungry..

he got himself some can food that can be consumed directly,ate it..but before he could finish them, he felt so terrible.feel as though he swallowed some kind of poison.n he vomited whatever food he ate,ill for the next few days..

he could not understand.what was happening to him?

...until he walked pass a few zombies who were eating a half-dead dog on the street.

he felt was like he has a strong urge to share the bites. and so he did.he felt satisfied the moment he tasted the blood.the flesh.until...the dog finally died.

he cant eat anymore when the living thing is dead.or else he got ill.
now,he realised,he was no longer a normal human anymore.some type of weird creature and that the experiment he participated turned him into who he is now.

it must be that experiment..and from there he wandered..belonging to half zombie n half human type of species.

or should i say,the appetite of a zombie n the mind of a human.

a sudden loud noise knocked me off from those scenes that were flashing in front of my eyes.
the zombies..they have arrived.
without wasting any further time,he pulled me n we start running again.for my life.

we ran into a field of long golden-yellowish color grass which was taller than me.

i lost hold of his hand when i were forcing my way through the grass that was blocking me.

i could not shout for him,afraid that the zombies know my wherebout.

plus,i dont even know his name.

finally,i managed to push my way out from the grass field.
shit.the sun was sinking into the horizontal line soon.sunset la tuu..
and i could see no building except for bakery? whatever.the only building i could see now.weird.
n the noises were getting choice la..i ran into the shop's direction.
bang on the door..saw 2 persons (human-looking fellas) inside.
the older man walked to me,
i could him saying 'we are about the to close soon,miss'
it seemed like,he doesnt know bout zombie outbreaks??
heck care.i said 'pls...i just wanna borrow the in a hurry'
i ran in n hid behind the shop,checking on the backdoor and the windows,particularly everything.
heard some noises outside,it should be those creatures.they saw the 2 men in the shop.

an evil plan was formed in my mind,when the zombies broke in and attacked them,i should ran from the backdoor,locked it the moment i am out,and go to the front door to lock it as well.

it might save me some time to search for that guy.for that he could save me,perhaps?i dont mind dying,but not being tore into pieces.nahhhh!!

and i have to keep the 2 men in the shop to lure the zombies into it before i could lock all of them inside.

evil,yes,i know.

the moment they forced their way into the shop.i ran out and locked the back door.

tadah! i woke up ady =)

whether or not that 2 men die,did i lock the front door,or did i managed to find that guy? unknown to me.

it just ended.abruptly.

Friday, August 13, 2010

definitely a dream is becoming true

having been always wondering,what will happen to my future and will my future dreams ever become a reality.

the future is fun because it is unknown.u can explore it.u can change it.

but the future is also dark n fearful,sharing the same reason,that is,it is unknown.anything could happen.

ur plans may fail,even the well-planned ones.

n most of the times,dreams remain as dreams.plain sweet dreams that are still constructing in your mind but nvr happen in real life.

do not fear to dream bout the future,even the near ridiculous ones, the impossible ones.not forgetting the dreams that being kept hidden underneath ur soul.

for sometimes,dreams being put into action might actually yield something..

for sometimes,luck will just srike u unaware of it,and ta-dah!! there go dreams becoming true.

xoxo,cheers and happy dreaming everyday <3

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Is that considered as verbal harassment?

there is a problem that I have only encounter it so often after I came to Sunway city...
back in Taiping, it did happen to me but that was only once in the blue moon (sekali-kala dalam bulan yang biru)..

whenever I am walking on the side of the road and when there are cars passing by me, almost everyday, I can hear 'hey lenglui~' or 'pheeewwiittt~' or 'xiao jie, handphone number leh~',etc.

feeling annoyed.yes.obviously.feeling happy? thanks.

not every guy did that.but a minority of them.i guess.or perhaps,majority?

oh well,I shouldnt keep that matter in my mind,as it does not interrupt with my life at all.I don't even know them.They don't even know me.

but,sometimes,I am really wondering.....WHAT IS IT IN THEIR MIND when they did that to the girls on the street?


(1) it could be that they are feeling euphoria to see the annoyed face on each girl they disturbed

(2) they did it thinking that it's cool??

(3) simply fulfilling a guy's responsibilities to disturb girls they dunno on the street? (is that assumption ever existed?)

(4) some girls really responded to them before?

(5) to help to create higher self-esteem in some girls? (hahahaha..i'm getting nowhere now,what kind of reason is this ==''' as if they are doing charity~)

(6) to help themselves to boost their self-confidence?

another question in my mind, does the level of education these people received/maturity affects this behaviour?

maybe one day I should try interview these people.or squat by the roadside for one whole day to jot down the responses of the day when i have nothing better to do in my life.

or should i try to be the one who shouted 'xiao jie,ni hao ma?? (miss,how are u??)' next time.


Sunday, August 1, 2010

random thought - boobs

a random thought just hit my mind...

even if i m given a chance to have big boobs...

i will reject that offer....

due to 3 reasons....

(1) i will have to change all my current bras...cos they can no longer accommodate bigger boobs and therefore, i will have to spend alot of money

(2) big boobs,in short,nice to see,not nice to own.
big boobs means heavier front part and the backbone will have to provide greater strength to support the body...nah...i don't wanna to have backache for nth

(3) bigger boobs may look nice now when i am still young. but as i grow older n older,they become sucks as they are getting saggy..eeeee~

=) what a funny random thought.....