Friday, March 23, 2012

i'm sexy and i know it



wow...the title above sounds so... arrogant..but anyway,it is good to boost up my confidence level sometimes...

as a preparation for myself?

why?

upcoming photo shoot scheduled by one of my friends...

and i have been practicing the so-called sexy expressions recently...

and goodbye for now

for fun,

shuying

Thursday, March 15, 2012

colors.art.love.



I was born with a gift,the gift to paint and draw what my eyes see...





Friday, January 27, 2012

when a guy....

when a guy says:

If a guy told you 'it is not your fault,it is my problem...I'm just not a good one' when he is asking for a break up, he doesn't mean it that way....

what he was trying to say is....

'you are not good enough for me and I definitely want to dump you now..but I am being constantly loaded with guilt,is there anything I can do to make you feel better?'

and when he said that,be prepared,he is really leaving you...or...very likely to leave you...

another no-no word to be heard from a guy is ..... 'I'm TIRED of these arguments...'

the word 'tired' itself can mean a lot..but for sure,he is very likely to mean this:

'I am mentally exhausted to continue to fight with you over certain matters and I think you should stop it or I need to take a break from our relationship to review if it is worthy for us to be together/if there is any more future lay ahead of us'

when a guy does:

  • if a guy likes you so so only,he will only watch you from far but not telling you.
  • if a guy likes you enough, he will gather up all the courage to confess and perhaps asking you to be his significant someone.
  • if you rejected him and he sort of starts to avoid you and suddenly disappear from your world, actually he doesn't love you but himself. why? It's simple,because he doesn't wanna waste anymore time on you once he knew he stands no chance to get your nodding and he chose to free himself from the so-called heartbreaking feeling he feels by not seeing you anymore : out of sight,out of mind.
  • if you rejected him and he chose to be your friend (better friend than nothing), how about reconsider such a guy? despite the awkwardness and the pain he feels when he claims to love you so much and yet,you are not with him,he still chose to remain around you as your friend,it means he cares for you more than himself and cannot afford to lose you,even if you don't want to be with him,treasure such a friend =)
cherish a person when he/she is there for you, no matter how busy you are, because when one's heart has given up, turned cold and walked away, it is already too late for anything to be done...as things will not be the same anymore...

as I am typing this blog post,I am actually listening to Taylor Swift's Back to December..beautiful song telling how much she regretted for taking him for granted...

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

Valentine is around the corner now....wishing whoever who read this post to have a really meaningful moment on February the 14th

ciao,
shu ying

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

date: 12.08.2005 , an essay I wrote when I was 16. A missed opportunity.

As a promise to my former English teacher back in high school, I kept my essay book and read it again after several years have passed...and there is an essay where I got 50 out of 50...

Here it goes..

Claudia and I stood beside our coffins, waiting for the sun. Waiting for it to burn us to ashes. We were motionless and so still that we could have been made of stone. Death was nothing to us but only death could bring us out from our miserable life. Life in death and life that required us to feed on warm fresh blood almost every night.
We were not born to be vampires. We were mortals and human beings until we met him, Jack. He was the one who gave us the two immortal holes on our throat. We were his victims.
I owned a big plantation in ancient Rome. I had a happy family and we often spent our time together. However, our happiness had come to an end when a plague occurred in the town and I was the only one survived from it. Nobody could understand my feelings. I was surrounded by the rotting bodies, everywhere in my hometown. The foul smell made me sick. The stench drove me mad.

Then, Jack came to me and told me that I would never face death if I obeyed him. And so I did because I did not want to die like the others. I remembered he sank his fangs into my throat slowly and sucked most of my blood. Then, he slitted his wrist and asked me to drink from the flowing blood. This was how he turned me into a vampire. Well, he did the same thing to Claudia too after he did that to me. Both Claudia and I were his slaves. Every night, Jack taught Claudia and I how to hunt and kill. To him, hunting, killing and finally drinking the victims' blood was a game. Sometimes, he would even kill two or three women even though one woman was enough to make him full. After seventy years living together with him, watched him kill every night just for fun, Claudia and I could not bear him anymore. But, we still clung to him because we wanted to know about other vampires that might exist in this world and where vampires including us were originated from. No matter how many times we asked, Jack never ever wanted to tell us. He told us that there was no other vampire in this world except us. He lied, we knew. There must be a vampire who actually made him a vampire. We wanted to be free from him because after we were freed, then only we could go to anywhere and every part of the world to search for our own kind. Claudia and I knew that Jack would never let us leave him since he was afraid of loneliness. Claudia then told me that she got an idea to be free from him forever. I still remember that night where the shy moon hid herself behind the dark clouds. The air was so refreshing and cooling and I predicted that it might rain. Claudia came home after her hunt, brought along two young boys with her.

'Where is Jack, Louis?', she asked me as her eyes were fixed on the boys.
'He is playing the piano idly in his room. Why are you looking for him?', I asked her back. I was curious.
'Nothing big deal. I just brought back some food for him. Hope he'll like them', she said, pointing to the two innocent boys.
I knew something was wrong because she hated Jack very much and it was impossible that she would hunt for him. My judgement proved correct. She killed Jack even though Jack was a powerful vampire and an immortal. Do you know the way? She poisoned the boys before Jack fed on them.

After Jack died, Claudia and I searched everywhere in his room including his coffin, hoping that we might find some clues of where he came from. Well, we found no clue. Therefore, we decided to go to the central of Europe. Claudia told me that we might find some of our own kind there. After some hard searching, we finally found them, vampires. Just like Claudia and I, they did feed on blood every night but wait, there was something different between them and us. Their huge eyes bulged out from their naked sockets and two small, hideous holes made up their noses. My hair stood on end when I noticed that only a leathery flesh enclosed their skulls and their clothes were rotting, thick with earth and slime with blood. And then, I realized that they were nothing but mindless corpses or living dead who fed on blood. I did not know what caused the differences between them and us. Maybe Jack knew nothing about that. But everything was too late now because Jack was dead. We did not have the opportunity to ask him anything, anymore. Claudia and I were lost in minds, not knowing where should we go and where we belonged. And that was why Claudia and I were waiting for the sunrise, waiting for the death to come and waiting for the end of our life.

Friday, October 7, 2011

when you start behaving like a woman

I still remember the days back in my high school where all of us were in our school uniform,gossiping about which guy likes which girl, what to prepare for the next coming canteen days, the marching practices in the evening, and the coming SPM examination...

time passes~

little did I realised, I kissed high school goodbye...

completed my foundation/pre-university study...

enrolled into Monash University....

struggled in my first year,away from family, far from hometown, surviving in a complete different environment while facing a new challenge known as 'assignments and quizzes'

second year passed too...

now,in my third and final year....

looking back at the old times, though they seemed like it was yesterday where we sit by the benches in the school, taking pictures with our cute poses

I know I am no longer the same little naive girl I used to be...

when I grow stronger and learned independence

when I am not interested in gossiping bout others but minding my own business

when I learned how to put myself in people's shoes and learn to care and share

when I learned to 'feel' things instead of 'seeing' things

when I wear 4 inches heels instead of Adidas or Nike shoes,

when I wear dresses instead of L size T-shirt and jeans

when I received compliments such as 'sexy' instead of 'cute'

when I realized time and life experiences changed me both mentally and physically

I came to understand the differences in my mindset when I was in my teenage and now when I am in my twenties...

and I will continue to learn

and hoping I can be a better person in my thirties...

and continue to learn throughout my whole lifetime..

wishing I can whisper to myself 'I have completed my life' on my dying bed.

*wink*

XoXoXo,

stay chic!

Monday, September 26, 2011

a girl's dream

to be honest, I am the typical type of girl you will see in 'the devil wears Prada'

dream of living in a big apartment in one of the most happening cities in the world (especially New York)

owning a big shoe room of mine - hopefully over 40 pairs of various kinds of heels, flats, wedges, boots

another bag room - filled with bags from Chanel, Burberry, Miu Miu, Prada, etc

LOL (I'm not greedy,yes,i know I'm greedy)

let's proceed with my not-so-greedy little dream...

how about having another personal corner filled with beautiful lacey boxes with floral prints?

box 1: filled with various perfumes~
box 2: filled with accessories
box 3: a professional make up box (having all the make up products, from A to Z)

moving further and a king size bed appears~

wow...

not enough? pulling the curtains....standing on a balcony with great sea view~

waking up each day, roll on the bed, get up and breathe in fresh air while standing on the beautiful balcony

deciding which style of outfit I want for the day,

looking at the heels and pick one matches my "today's feeling"

putting on accessories and wear the selected perfume

put on make up too, of course,

and then sit on the bed,

ice-blended orange juice with chocolate banana cake for breakfast,

then head out for work.

life like this~

*smack on the forehead*

okay....come back to reality...

cheers! ^^








Tuesday, August 23, 2011

talking to the moon

everyone was wrong.i was wrong.he is still in love with me.

no.he wants to stop it.because we are too far apart.

yes,i am still in love with him too.

we promised not to talk to each other.promised to move on without each other in our life.

all i can do now is listening to Bruno Mars's talking to the moon and trying to sing along the chorus

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

my heart feels kind of sour.

and i posted on my Facebook wall:

我始終帶著你愛的微笑
一路上尋找我遺失的美好
不小心當淚滑嘴角
就用你握過的手抹掉


he posted on his Facebook wall:

只希望你微笑

bitter smile.right person.wrong timing.i miss you.

世间万千的变幻
爱把有情的人分两端
心若知道灵犀的方向
哪怕不能够朝夕相伴
城里的月光把梦照亮
请温暖他心房