the earthquake theory

i wrote a theory for being in love,
http://ilovepurpleberries.blogspot.com/2009/12/gross-toilet-theory.html
another theory of breaking up
http://ilovepurpleberries.blogspot.com/2011/02/acne-breakouts-relationship-breakups.html
and now what?
final theory of post-break up life
♥
and this time...it feels like the post-earthquake life
it feels like you are being stuck in between two huge rocks right after the happening of earthquake
half of your body and limbs are under these rocks
extreme pain
but you simply stuck there,not being able to move
some people will ask you to let go and move on,
but you can't,
there is no way you are willing to take a knife or a sharp-edged rock to cut your own bones and flesh that are stuck under the rocks,
some people tell you that you will have a better life after you let go,
yeah,how will you know if i still survive after cutting half of my body and limbs apart?
even if i survived, things and life will not be the same again,
i will lost parts of me, handicapped.
it requires tremendous bravery to do so,by the way
and most importantly,the love for the limbs.

however, you can still choose to continue to be under the rocks.
extreme pain,
but
you are unwilling to detach from the other half of yours
what to do?
although these parts of you might be dead already by now
(due to the long-term lack of blood circulation and terrible injuries)
extreme pain, and fortunately, you are tough enough to take it.
at first you will scream in pain and asking for help,
no one can help you,
you are the only one who is stuck
and the people around you could not help to remove the rocks away,
even if they wanted to
all they can do is to just watch you in pain,
some couldn't watch it anymore and choose to turn away
some are still watching, but no one can completely understand the bearer's pain
even the bearer himself/herself

time flies,
you stop screaming because people starts to find it annoying and depressing
and you are getting so numb and tired.
sometimes, you will feel alright as you starting to get used to it
sometimes,you even forgotten the rocks are still there
sometimes,you remember that you are still retaining the paralyzed limps
sometimes, you learn to enjoy the pain
and lastly,all the time,you wish that all has happened is just another nightmare.

♥ disappointment equals to expectation divided by reality ♥

-shuyingsayscheers-

the acne breakouts @ relationship breakups theory

breaking up with your partner is almost similar to having a sudden acne attack
the night before, you wouldn't sense any changes on your face, or any changes in your relationship
guess what?
the next day,early in the morning after u woke up,look into the mirror and GASPED! what the hell! acne!!??

the same goes to the relationship. the night before he/she said 'i love u so much' and the next day 'i don't love you anymore'...pathetic? some people told me,this is called LIFE. what a life.

so what's next? the pimple on your face is so painful. the itchy fingers of yours, wanting to squeeze it all the time,but you can't. simply because it is so painful and your subconscious mind knows, the more u squeeze,the more painful it is and it might spread out to the other parts after it breaks.

so what's next? having the thought of the reality that he/she is leaving your world, the helpless mind of yours wanting him/her back so badly. but i heard some people said before too, the more you wanna to patch back,the more he/she wanna leave you. deep in you,you know,your act will drives him/her further n further away and end up having no contacts.

so,you are stuck in this helpless state.the acne on your face.the broken relationship you have.you cannot do a single thing to help it or prevent it from happening. you are just stuck.

everyone said time will wash everything away.time will heal the pain. both the breakouts n the breakups.

ya,i know too.time.time is all you need. after some time,the acne pain will recover and your broken heart will recover too.

leaving scars behind. what is the difference? huge difference. the scar on the face is not as deadly as the scar in the heart. sometimes the scars fade. sometimes the scars retain,but for most people,the scars retained to remind you,it is there...it still exists.

alright,scars really a living proof that a wound has recovered? not really, i should say.it might look fine on the surface, but underneath the scars, well, you might find it rotten flesh.

this is another comparison of love with something else.i hope i don't compare love with something gross,again,in the future.

cheers!

*the gross toilet theory*

to fall in love and be in a relationship is to eat something u love

that it satisfies your hunger the moment u taste it,

keeps u full,

provides the nutrients u need,

and it makes u really happy especially when it is the food that u have been longing for.

as the relationship grows older and u get to know your lover better,

knowing about his/her imperfections,

realising that he/she is not flawless from within,

so different from the kind of person he/she portrays.

the same goes for the favourite food u have eaten,

it will be broken into smaller particles in order to allow better absorption,

and everyone knows that these half-way digested food is no longer look as nice as it is before u eat it.

to suffer in a relationship where arguements are common is like having a diarrhea.

it's extreme painful and hard to get rid of.

when you feel so unhappy in your relationship,it is hard to fake a smile although you are in the middle of partying and you might not going to party at all,

you can hardly carve a smile too when u r having diarrhea.

the only choice left : go toilet and release to let it go~

and that's why couples tend to break up and let him/her go~

but the word 'diarrhea' suggest that you need to go to toilet few times,

just like the relationship,struggling hard before really break up.

and then,the moment you realise that you no longer miss him/her or love him/her

is exactly the same feeling when u realise that the diarrhea has stopped.

what you will be feeling next?

lighter?

no burden?

more relaxing?

or 'arh...finally~' ?

=)

although falling in love and breaking up is a painful process

but people keep trying it

although eating and defaecation is a painful process

but people keep trying it

the reason is simple

we eat to live,

we live to love,

no matter how painful it is in the end.