Papa, can you hear me sing?

this is a movie produced in 1983, although it's a kinda old movie, although I was born so much later compared to the movie, I would like to say, this is the one of the best movies I have ever watched in my life.

It is a movie demonstrating how great a father's love can be, to his beloved daughter....i swear each time I watched,ever since i was 4 or 5 years old until recently, I watch the whole movie again part by part in youtube, i cried from part 1/9 to part 9/9 and it haunted me for 2 days, each time I flashback about the movie, my heart feels kinda sour...

here is the link to this movie, and I found english subtitles for those who don't understand Taiwanese's mandarin...

< http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLsviPbCdzM >

here is the short summary of the movie...

the main character, the father, is a deaf man who collects and sells old alcohol bottles, making enough living to barely feed himself and his wife...one fine morning, he passes by a thrash bin and he found a young baby crying in the thrash, her biological mother has abandoned her but named her 'Ah Mei'..

that man brought her home, not knowing that his wife will be upset about this matter.To her, their life has been considered poor enough to feed both of them and now,he brought back another child, someone else's child, and she knows it is not cheap to feed a child. Ah Mei's crying and the hard life they lead where the father needs to feed 3 persons with the little money he makes, the man's wife decided to leave him....

the man wanted to make her stay,but as the child cries, he turned back, he chose the child instead of his wife...his wife left him..and him,a man who cannot speak a word, decided to dedicate his life to raise her up and to love her whole-heartedly...unconditional love,i should say...

the child finally grow up...and she saved a German Shepherd who is injured..named it 'Lai Fu'...an obedient and loyal dog, a girl and her father, together this family was built...

years and years passed...the girl finally grew up into a fine lady, she got a job in a lounge bar where she works as a singer in that bar....little did she noticed, a young man, Shi Jun Mai, noticed her, he is a song composer and lyrics writer, he spotted her and thinks she is of rare talent...

they then got closer, he writes and composes songs for her to sing in the lounge bar, little did they realised, it changes her life completely when her rare talent in singing was spotted by the production company (I am not so sure what do people call those companies who sign artists)..

Ah Mei signed contract with the company, to be a singer, with the conditions where she needs to change her name to Sun Jui Chi and she needs to cheat about her family background to make her fans thinks that she comes from a wealthy and well-educated family....

in her celebration party after her successful concert in Taiwan, her father attended it without invitation because he misses her so much since she does not goes home for months now, she was forced by her manager not to admit that the old man in his rags is her father, and her father loves her so much that he showed to the media with his sign language that he is not her father but a fraud...and he left the party

life is even more unbearable when his dog, Lai Fu, died when trying to save him from a reckless motorcycle rider....

on the other hand, she then got famous real fast and moved to a bigger condominium prepared by the company,

and her distant with her boyfriend, Shi Jun Mai, who always be there with her, grows, he feels she has changed into someone he no longer know, no longer the innocent girl he met singing in the bar...he then left her...

she had her tour concert in Asia...at the same time, her father's health is getting worse...

Shi Jun Mai went to visit her father,and he wrote a soulful song for her,hoping that she would sing it in her Taiwan concert after her Asia tour..the song was about her father and her...

when she came back to Taiwan after her Asia tour,her manager stopped her from meeting her father of her tight schedule and upcoming concert..

that night, her father watches her concert through the television's screen, suddenly...his heart grows ill and he was immediately admitted to hospital...

unable to speak or move, his eyes showed that he is missing Ah Mei badly....his friend who sent him to hospital, rushed to the concert and had Ah Mei rushing to hospital to see him for one last chance...

unfortunately, she couldn't make it...he stopped breathing before he could see her...

the movie ended with Ah Mei singing the song Shi Jun Mai wrote for her, in the concert, dedicated to her father....

* I am too lazy to bother to either write in past tense or present tense anymore *

as long as anyone who reads this understand...

cheers,

Shuying

the many faces of me

tonnes of assignments, lab reports, lecture classes and my part

time work

tight schedule all the time

and when I am looking almost a zombie...

WHAT? formal presentation on this coming Saturday???

what the ______!!! (fill in the blank)

HAHAHAHAH

but in this hectic lifestyle, I still like to snap my own portrait pictures...

why?

no particular reasons, I just like to take pictures of myself

...

to see the changes in my hairstyle?

to see how I actually age over the years?

for fun? I personally like to edit pictures

that is what I can do in when I am tired of typing my reports but I have to continue to sit in front of my laptop?

so,these are few pictures I snapped...the many faces of me...

first picture, the Queen of Pride look:

hell yeah, my totally-excited look?

Oh no,trying-to-be-cute look.... =='''

the night is cool~~

EMOness spreading around me....

today-gonna-be-a good-day look!

grumpy look?

Arrogant look:

A smile a day, keep all troubles away =D

'dream, hope and love' look with my favourite quote of all time,

so, which look is the best for me?

gonna go,

till the next post,

with love,

Shuying

i'm sexy and i know it

wow...the title above sounds so... arrogant..but anyway,it is good to boost up my confidence level sometimes...

as a preparation for myself?

why?

upcoming photo shoot scheduled by one of my friends...

and i have been practicing the so-called sexy expressions recently...

and goodbye for now

for fun,

shuying

colors.art.love.

I was born with a gift,the gift to paint and draw what my eyes see...

when a guy....

when a guy says:

If a guy told you 'it is not your fault,it is my problem...I'm just not a good one' when he is asking for a break up, he doesn't mean it that way....

what he was trying to say is....

'you are not good enough for me and I definitely want to dump you now..but I am being constantly loaded with guilt,is there anything I can do to make you feel better?'

and when he said that,be prepared,he is really leaving you...or...very likely to leave you...

another no-no word to be heard from a guy is ..... 'I'm TIRED of these arguments...'

the word 'tired' itself can mean a lot..but for sure,he is very likely to mean this:

'I am mentally exhausted to continue to fight with you over certain matters and I think you should stop it or I need to take a break from our relationship to review if it is worthy for us to be together/if there is any more future lay ahead of us'

when a guy does:

• if a guy likes you so so only,he will only watch you from far but not telling you.

• if a guy likes you enough, he will gather up all the courage to confess and perhaps asking you to be his significant someone.

• if you rejected him and he sort of starts to avoid you and suddenly disappear from your world, actually he doesn't love you but himself. why? It's simple,because he doesn't wanna waste anymore time on you once he knew he stands no chance to get your nodding and he chose to free himself from the so-called heartbreaking feeling he feels by not seeing you anymore : out of sight,out of mind.

• if you rejected him and he chose to be your friend (better friend than nothing), how about reconsider such a guy? despite the awkwardness and the pain he feels when he claims to love you so much and yet,you are not with him,he still chose to remain around you as your friend,it means he cares for you more than himself and cannot afford to lose you,even if you don't want to be with him,treasure such a friend =)

cherish a person when he/she is there for you, no matter how busy you are, because when one's heart has given up, turned cold and walked away, it is already too late for anything to be done...as things will not be the same anymore...

as I am typing this blog post,I am actually listening to Taylor Swift's Back to December..beautiful song telling how much she regretted for taking him for granted...

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

Valentine is around the corner now....wishing whoever who read this post to have a really meaningful moment on February the 14th

ciao,
shu ying

date: 12.08.2005 , an essay I wrote when I was 16. A missed opportunity.

As a promise to my former English teacher back in high school, I kept my essay book and read it again after several years have passed...and there is an essay where I got 50 out of 50...

Here it goes..

Claudia and I stood beside our coffins, waiting for the sun. Waiting for it to burn us to ashes. We were motionless and so still that we could have been made of stone. Death was nothing to us but only death could bring us out from our miserable life. Life in death and life that required us to feed on warm fresh blood almost every night.
We were not born to be vampires. We were mortals and human beings until we met him, Jack. He was the one who gave us the two immortal holes on our throat. We were his victims.
I owned a big plantation in ancient Rome. I had a happy family and we often spent our time together. However, our happiness had come to an end when a plague occurred in the town and I was the only one survived from it. Nobody could understand my feelings. I was surrounded by the rotting bodies, everywhere in my hometown. The foul smell made me sick. The stench drove me mad.

Then, Jack came to me and told me that I would never face death if I obeyed him. And so I did because I did not want to die like the others. I remembered he sank his fangs into my throat slowly and sucked most of my blood. Then, he slitted his wrist and asked me to drink from the flowing blood. This was how he turned me into a vampire. Well, he did the same thing to Claudia too after he did that to me. Both Claudia and I were his slaves. Every night, Jack taught Claudia and I how to hunt and kill. To him, hunting, killing and finally drinking the victims' blood was a game. Sometimes, he would even kill two or three women even though one woman was enough to make him full. After seventy years living together with him, watched him kill every night just for fun, Claudia and I could not bear him anymore. But, we still clung to him because we wanted to know about other vampires that might exist in this world and where vampires including us were originated from. No matter how many times we asked, Jack never ever wanted to tell us. He told us that there was no other vampire in this world except us. He lied, we knew. There must be a vampire who actually made him a vampire. We wanted to be free from him because after we were freed, then only we could go to anywhere and every part of the world to search for our own kind. Claudia and I knew that Jack would never let us leave him since he was afraid of loneliness. Claudia then told me that she got an idea to be free from him forever. I still remember that night where the shy moon hid herself behind the dark clouds. The air was so refreshing and cooling and I predicted that it might rain. Claudia came home after her hunt, brought along two young boys with her.

'Where is Jack, Louis?', she asked me as her eyes were fixed on the boys.
'He is playing the piano idly in his room. Why are you looking for him?', I asked her back. I was curious.
'Nothing big deal. I just brought back some food for him. Hope he'll like them', she said, pointing to the two innocent boys.
I knew something was wrong because she hated Jack very much and it was impossible that she would hunt for him. My judgement proved correct. She killed Jack even though Jack was a powerful vampire and an immortal. Do you know the way? She poisoned the boys before Jack fed on them.

After Jack died, Claudia and I searched everywhere in his room including his coffin, hoping that we might find some clues of where he came from. Well, we found no clue. Therefore, we decided to go to the central of Europe. Claudia told me that we might find some of our own kind there. After some hard searching, we finally found them, vampires. Just like Claudia and I, they did feed on blood every night but wait, there was something different between them and us. Their huge eyes bulged out from their naked sockets and two small, hideous holes made up their noses. My hair stood on end when I noticed that only a leathery flesh enclosed their skulls and their clothes were rotting, thick with earth and slime with blood. And then, I realized that they were nothing but mindless corpses or living dead who fed on blood. I did not know what caused the differences between them and us. Maybe Jack knew nothing about that. But everything was too late now because Jack was dead. We did not have the opportunity to ask him anything, anymore. Claudia and I were lost in minds, not knowing where should we go and where we belonged. And that was why Claudia and I were waiting for the sunrise, waiting for the death to come and waiting for the end of our life.

when you start behaving like a woman

I still remember the days back in my high school where all of us were in our school uniform,gossiping about which guy likes which girl, what to prepare for the next coming canteen days, the marching practices in the evening, and the coming SPM examination...

time passes~

little did I realised, I kissed high school goodbye...

completed my foundation/pre-university study...

enrolled into Monash University....

struggled in my first year,away from family, far from hometown, surviving in a complete different environment while facing a new challenge known as 'assignments and quizzes'

second year passed too...

now,in my third and final year....

looking back at the old times, though they seemed like it was yesterday where we sit by the benches in the school, taking pictures with our cute poses

I know I am no longer the same little naive girl I used to be...

when I grow stronger and learned independence

when I am not interested in gossiping bout others but minding my own business

when I learned how to put myself in people's shoes and learn to care and share

when I learned to 'feel' things instead of 'seeing' things

when I wear 4 inches heels instead of Adidas or Nike shoes,

when I wear dresses instead of L size T-shirt and jeans

when I received compliments such as 'sexy' instead of 'cute'

when I realized time and life experiences changed me both mentally and physically

I came to understand the differences in my mindset when I was in my teenage and now when I am in my twenties...

and I will continue to learn

and hoping I can be a better person in my thirties...

and continue to learn throughout my whole lifetime..

wishing I can whisper to myself 'I have completed my life' on my dying bed.

*wink*

XoXoXo,

stay chic!